October 2020 #balancedtarot Light/Dark Tarot Challenge

[sammywhatammy]

🌙✨ Day 1: “what is my greatest strength?” King of Pentacles, King of Wands reversed, Ten of Cups. I’m comfortable in my financial situation thanks to my father, the King. I’m financially secure. however I’m impulsive, hasty, and my expectations of myself are too high, but they keep me in the straight and narrow...most of the time. I’m also a very positive, joyful person; people enjoy being around me because I’m charming yet genuine.

🌙✨ Day 2: “what is my greatest weakness?” Two of Pentacles, Seven of Swords reversed, Two of Cups reversed. I’m TERRIBLE at balance. I spread myself too thin amongst too many options of action or I focus too much on one area and not enough on another. I can be honest to a fault, which can get me into trouble in a lot of different contexts, or I keep secrets about things that I should voice. I’m bad at collaborating and either rely on others too much or not enough, and it’s very rough on me emotionally because I feel abandoned or anxious.

🌙✨ Day 3: “what is my consciousness trying to convey to me?” King of Cups, The Star, Five of Wands. I need to learn to be more emotionally stable during times of high stress; I’m highly compassionate but could learn to be more so, and I’ve finally attained emotional stability in regards to my depressive bipolar (yay!). if I have Faith, my cup will run over and I will be able to share my emotions, my love for the world, my compassion for almost all people. and I will find my purpose thanks a to that journey of self. continue on my spiritual path. however, there’s tension somewhere I’m not seeing...unless this refers to my commitment to BLM, or Refuse Fascism. I need to have hope, and support that causes and march.

🌙✨ Day 4: "what is my subconscious trying to tell me?" Temperance, Nine of Cups reversed, Six of Wands, Page of Cups reversed, Three of Swords reversed. I need to seek equilibrium with everything that I'm trying to do and stop being dissatisfied with "not doing enough" at once, especially in regards to magical and spiritual study. I need to empty my cup and negative emotions and release what hurts me. possibly subconscious work.

🌙✨ Day 5: "what makes me feel powerful?" Page of Swords reversed, Queen of Cups, The Lovers, Ace of Swords, Ten of Cups reversed. self-expression, compassion, harmonious communication, metal clarity, and............the search for happiness.

🌙✨ Day 6: "what is a subconscious trigger in my life?" Two of Wands reversed, Page of Cups reversed, Queen of Wands, The Devil reversed, Five of Wands. fear of the unknown, creative blocks, my mother, exploring dark thoughts, conflict

🌙✨ Day 7: "what is a challenge I am currently facing?" Three of Swords reversed, Six of Swords reversed, King of Pentacles, Knight of Cups, Three of Pentacles reversed. I need to release pain and trauma and the burdens I still carry with me, especially in regards to my father. I need to carry my emotions steadily and try to find collaboration within myself, with my subconscious.

🌙✨ Day 8: "how can I overcome my challenges?" The Lovers, Nine of Wands reversed, Four of Swords reversed, The High Priestess, Four of Cups. communicate with a therapist of some kind and don't try to be victorious so quickly. rest but stay alert and open your mind and intuition to possibility and quiet action.

🌙✨ Day 9: "what can I do to feel more authentic?" Queen of Wands reversed, Six of Pentacles, The Emperor, Strength reversed, Ace of Cups. I need to re-establish my sense of self and be as generous to myself as I am to others. I need structure, inner strength, and self-love.

🌙✨ Day 10: "how can I overcome feelings of judgement?" Four of Cups reversed, The Empress, Two of Cups, Two of Wands, Judgement. I need to withdraw and rest in order to nurture myself, and come together with myself in a harmonious way so that I can expand and explore and discover my inner calling.

🌙✨ Day 11: "how can I prioritize my well-being?" Two of Swords reversed, Queen of Swords, Four of Swords, Nine of Pentacles reversed, Ten of Pentacles reversed. I need to be less guarded and maintain a cool, detached mind so that I can rest.I need to acknowledge my self-worth and my inner abundance.

🌙✨ Day 12: "how am I being selfish?" Death reversed, Five of Cups, Five of Pentacles, The Lovers reversed, Justice reversed. as far as my personal transformation, there's disappointment and great lack in my communication with higher powers like my guides, my ancestors, and angels.

🌙✨ Day 13: "what hurt am I still reliving?" Ace of Swords, Page of Wands, Seven of Pentacles, Ten of Swords, Five of Wands. I'm having breakthroughs about my spiritual path and persevering through my feelings of past loss and betray and conflict.

🌙✨ Day 14: "how has my previous pain strengthened me?" The Sun, Two of Wands, Nine of Cups, King of Cups, Nine of Pentacles reversed. I have great joy, compassion, and strength. Inner alignment and personal goals. I am satisfied with my great stability and maturity in my emotional state, and my inner abundance.

🌙✨ Day 15: "what have I been avoiding?" Four of Cups, Eight of Pentacles reversed, The Tower, Page of Pentacles, King of Swords reversed. I haven't been resting enough and have been seeking perfection and have been misdirecting my activity, which has led to the huge shift against my will of my body demanding rest. even still, I have my curiosity and inner truth.

🌙✨ Day 16: "what have I been prioritizing?" Six of Swords, King of Pentacles reversed, Strength reversed, Seven of Pentacles reversed, The Moon. releasing many burdens and my financial ineptness; celebrating my inner abundance. my inner strength. but also dissatisfaction over what work I've done so far, and anxiety over upcoming depression.

🌙✨ Day 17: "how have I been judgemental?" Eight of Wands, Four of Wands, Three of Pentacles reversed, Six of Pentacles reversed, The Empress. I've been too fast to judge others' success by unrealistic standards, and stifling collaboration and ceasing of charitable giving. I have been judging the inner divine, my nurturing self in regards to others.

🌙✨ Day 18: "how can I begin to accept others as they are?" Knight of Swords, The Chariot reversed, Page of Swords reversed, The Heirophant reversed, Ace of Swords reversed. if I can quickly catch myself and slow down, quickly remember my inner values, then I will have peace of mind to lose judgement.

🌙✨ Day 19: "when I'm feeling hurt, I need to remember..." Eight of Cups reversed, Nine of Wands reversed, Six of Cups, Seven of Cups reversed, Knight of Cups. that I can let go of loss and defeat, and remember joy. that I shouldn't be burdened by overwhelming choices, and that I shouldn't get moody or sulky.

🌙✨ Day 20: "when I'm happy, I need to remember..." Ten of Pentacles reversed, Six of Wands reversed, Page of Wands, The High Priestess reversed, Five of Wands reversed. that I need to be careful about my finances, that I can celebrate my private achievements, that I can admire my passions and inner fire, that I have much work to do for my inner work and intuition, and that there is still inner conflict I have to deal with.

🌙✨ Day 21: "what scares me?" Seven of Wands reversed, Eight of Cups reversed, The Emperor reversed, Queen of Swords, Page of Swords. being overwhelmed and giving up. being restricted by structure, which is cool and detached. new ideas that I can't manifest.

🌙✨ Day 22: "how can I begin to overcome my fears?" Ace of Swords reversed, Two of Cups, Judgement, Ten of Swords, Queen of Wands. have inner clarity about my inner harmony and partnership with my inner calling and absolution. I must not betray myself, but instead look ahead with confidence.

🌙✨ Day 23: "how is my inner critique hurting me?" The Sun reversed, The Fool, Six of Swords. it's stealing my joy and celebration of myself in life. I'm stepping off the cliff and not transforming into power, but instead dealing with unfinished business of pain and trauma.

🌙✨ Day 24: "how can I create healthy inner dialogue with my inner critic?" Knight of Cups, Two of Wands, Page of Swords reversed, Justice reversed, King of Cups. a lot about keeping my emotions slow and steady and stable, seeking discovery and expansion, being open to new ideas about my inner truth.

🌙✨ Day 25: "what do I need to hold on to?" Knight of Pentacles reversed, Ace of Cups reversed, Strength reversed, The Hermit, Nine of Pentacles. the self-discipline that I am trying to nurture and grow, self-love, inner strength, the power of introspection, and my inner abundance.

🌙✨ Day 26: "what do I need to let go of?" Eight of Wands reversed, Queen of Pentacles reversed, Five of Wands, The Empress, Knight of Wands. my frustration and lack of self-care routines, competition with myself and my divine feminine.

🌙✨ Day 27: "what can I do to improve my relationship with my loved ones?" The Lovers, The Magician, Knight of Swords reversed, Three of Swords reversed, Three of Pentacles. communicate kindly and harmoniously, remember my power and set boundaries. be wary of burnout as I extend my mental energy, and release past trauma that they might have had a hand in. collaborate with them on this.

🌙✨ Day 28: "how can I improve my relationship with myself?" Queen of Cups reversed, Nine of Cups reversed, Ten of Cups, Eight of Cups, Queen of Wands. all about emotions! do more self-care to show myself self-love, find inner happiness, seek to fulfill my dreams, let go of that which no longer serves me, and find my self-confidence.

🌙✨ Day 29: "what weighs heavily on me?" Ten of Swords, The Empress, King of Pentacles reversed, King of Wands, Four of Swords reversed. man, I've been getting The Empress a LOT. I still carry the sorrow of loss, and the need to nurture myself through this. I'm financially inept, despite seeing a glimmer of wanting to be an entrepreneur and having a vision. I'm unhappy with the amount of rest that my body and mind is demanding.

🌙✨ Day 30: "how can I lift myself up?" Eight of Wands, The Hermit, Six of Cups, The Heirophant reversed, Queen of Pentacles reversed. I need to stop hesitating about going inward and seeking introspection and productive withdrawal. there is joy in my inner values and holding them up, especially if I nurture them with self-care.

🌙✨ Day 31: "a special message from the tarot?" Temperance, Five of Pentacles, Three of Wands, Eight of Cups, Death reversed. I need to balance myself with the divine and my divine guides and ancestors and angels, or face hardship and spiritual poverty. I need to keep seeking and searching and learning, or I will face disappointment and failure. personal transformation is necessary, not optional.