sammywhatammy | November 2020 "As Above, So Below" Challenge by @lionharts

Week One

SUN

2. "what am I asked to create for myself, or work on, throughout the month of November?" Ten of Cups. I need to work on finding ways to sustain my joy, especially as my winter depression approaches. I need to find joy in going slowly and doing quiet activities like reading, in direct opposition to my Aries sun nature HAHA. I also need to work on how to start building the foundations to move my fiance down here and to have a home together.
3. "something that could support my creative flow or focus:" Eight of Pentacles. I need to actually put my nose down and DO. nothing is going to be accomplished without hard work and discipline, and that includes trying to find my creative spark again for drawing, which is the creativity I've most lost and most mourn. I also need to be less lazy about writing, haha.
if there's a bigger picture, it might be saying that a new home with my fiance will give me the literal and metaphorical space to turn back to finding my passion for drawing again.

MOON

4. "how can I best work with, or work around, the current vibes?" Queen of Cups reversed. step off of my throne and into the tide, into the flow. ...I'm not sure how. clarification: Seven of Swords reversed. honesty, public action. that sounds like I might have to dive into the reactions of the people after the outcome of the election?
5. "where am I asked to follow, or listen to, my gut feelings?" Justice. in matters of, well. justice. of fairness and equity. clearly talking about the issues of our times. maybe something happens with the election?

(switched to Flux Arcana Tarot)

RISING

6. "how does the world around me perceive me right now?" Strength. though the beast within me is fearsome, I have been taming it with the divinity within me. my depression has been greatly lessened by my spiritual journey, and others are seeing hope from my example.
7. "how can I balance the self with those around me, to achieve what I am asked to work on this month?" Five of Swords reversed. stop fighting myself. embrace myself internally, including the hurts and the traumas.

Week Two

8. my Mercury is in Pisces, my Mars is in Taurus, and my Venus is in Aquarius.

MERCURY

9. "what can I learn from my Mercury placement (Pisces)?" Ten of Pentacles reversed. in the upright, this deck's card shows a figure with a huge crown, a slim halo, and the stars and moon under its robes. it has everything. when reversed, it looks like the figure is reaching for the stars. I think my Mercury in Pisces is telling me to never stop dreaming; never stop looking upwards and being awed by the universe, never stop reaching upwards and inwards.
10. "how can Mercury's curiosity help my current journey?" I felt called to pull five cards; Page of Pentacles reversed, Ten of Pentacles, Temperance, Five of Pentacles, Four of Cups. by giving me more financial intelligence with my abundance, and teaching me balance so that I don't end up destitute and disappointed.

MARS

11. "an obstacle or blockage I am asked to deal with:" Three of Swords reversed. internal turmoil and trauma.
12. "how can I positively overcome or deal with this obstacle?" Seven of Wands. by fighting back the thoughts and spiritual bypassing I would otherwise use.

VENUS

13. "a reminder of my personal values, my happiness, or how to remain aligned with what makes me feel good?" Two of Pentacles. learn to examine where I am not paying attention, where I have been slacking, instead of to where I've been exceling.
14. "how can I {begin to} do {more of} what I love?" The Hanged Man reversed. stop surrendering to the lack of it and dive back in.

Week 3

15. my Uranus is in Sagittarius, my Jupiter is in Aries, my Neptune is in Capricorn.

(using the Destiny Deck)

URANUS

16. "something that makes me truly unique, or something that can support my individuality?" The Devil, Strength reversed, Two of Swords reversed, Ten of Wands reversed, Five of Cups reversed. I keep falling to earth like a fallen angel, losing strength and feeling that I have no choice but this to happen. I keep overburdening myself and being disappointed in myself for not living up to my unrealistic expectations of myself.
17. "how can I use the energy of Uranus in my Zodiac Sign to help me learn or discover new things?" Ten of Wands, The Emperor reversed, Two of Wands reversed, Ten of Pentacles, Ten of Cups. with all of these Tens, I'm definitely at the end of a phase! I can stay grounded with internal structure and self-discipline, looking inward to find what makes me have material and emotional security and happiness.

JUPITER

18. "a reminder of something I can be grateful of/for, or something that could greatly help me right now?" The Lovers reversed, Two of Swords reversed, Nine of Pentacles reversed, Page of Pentacles, Wheel of Fortune reversed. that I have excellent communication with myself and know what I want and what I decide. I have inner abundance and knowledge about the world around me, and curiosity about the world as well. I have the power to change my fate from within.
19. "how can I (further) focus on the good that surrounds me, or the good that's within?" Justice, Two of Swords reversed, Page of Wands reversed, Three of Pentacles, Strength. find comfort in that so many others are also fighting for social justice and truth, not just myself. find my inner courage and collaborate with them to find more strength to keep going.

(using Star Spinner Tarot)

NEPTUNE

20. "a dream, hope, or desire I am asked to feed or honor {more}?" Five of Swords, Ten of Coins, The Lovers reversed, Nine of Coins reversed, Seven of Swords. I keep betraying my potential to be happy and materially secure. there's disharmony between my ego and my shadow, and I'm fueling my inner conflict about self-worth by buying myself "presents" beyond my means, deceiving and betraying myself.
21. "what can serve as an inspiration, or how can I {best} get/stay inspired?" Temperance, Seven of Wands, Four of Swords reversed, Death reversed, Six of Coins. connect with the divine and stop fighting my need to rest due to depression. change myself and my outlook to figure out how I can keep giving without giving too much of myself and my resources.

Week 4

22. my Pluto is in Scorpio, Saturn is in Sagittarius, North Node in Aries, South Node in Libra

PLUTO

23. "what part of my life needs transformation?" Knight of Chalices, Eight of Swords reversed, Three of Chalices reversed, Two of Coins, The Empress reversed. I need to examine my emotions and unbind myself from my mind, which keeps me from doing so. it keeps me from harmony within myself and with my shadow. I need this balance so that I can nurture my inner self.
24. "what is the first step in this transformation journey, or where do I begin this transformation today?" Ace of Chalices, Nine of Wands, Page of Coins reversed, Two of Swords, Five of Wands. I need to be ready to dive into my emotions and connect with the divine to plunge the depths with my shadow work. it will be exhausting but ultimately victorious. I'm getting in my own way by guarding myself from inner truth, and causing internal conflict and suffering unnecessarily.

SATURN

25. "what {personal} boundaries should I work on, honor, respect, or acknowledge right now?" Seven of Swords reversed, Knight of Wands, Wheel of Fate reversed, King of Chalices reversed, Four of Wands reversed. I need to be honest with myself if I want to be true to my self, or risk repeating the same mistakes and same miseries, leading to emotional stagnancy, instability, and/or steps backwards. this will harm me long term.
26. "what {personal} limitations am I asked to accept, or be more understanding of?" Ten of Swords reversed, Knight of Coins, Page of Wands reversed, The Tower reversed, Five of Chalices. I can rise from the ashes of loss and betrayal, but I question my bonds and roles here in the earthly realm. I need to drastically change the loss of a spark of inspiration, or I risk regret and failure.

NORTH AND SOUTH NODE

27. "something I am destined to grow towards/into/past?" Seven of Swords reversed, Knight of Swords reversed, Two of Chalices, King of Swords, The Empress. claiming my power with honesty and integrity will steadily bring inner truth and mental power, bringing harmony to my emotions. I can be assertive and logical about my power, and nurture it lovingly.

(using The Destiny Deck)

28. "a main challenge in this lifetime, or how to best deal with it:" King of Swords reversed, Ten of Swords reversed, Five of Cups reversed, Three of Swords reversed, Three of Cups reversed. I don't trust myself and I'm too passive. I need to end this self-betrayal so that I can learn from my mistakes and grow, finding what power I already have instead of walking away from what I think I don't have. there's inner child work and trauma that I have to work on.
29. "a gift I am asked to use to its fullest potential in this lifetime:" THe World reversed, Five of Pentacles, Nine of Wands, King of Wands, Page of Cups. I have many internal obstacles and hardships; I understand different kinds of suffering and this has taught me strength and empathy and compassion. I can use this traits to inspire others, to be a visionary and a leader. and help others find the path to self-love and emotional wellness.
30. "what major lesson do I take out of this month?" Nine of Cups reversed, King of Wands reversed, Five of Wands, Seven of Swords reversed, Judgement reversed. that I'm contracting instead of expanding; I'm not stepping into my own power and I don't know how to. I'm fighting with myself about how I've been dishonest with myself about some of my shadow work, and not being authentic or truthful.