sammywhatammy | May readings

READING FOR S. about a toxic work relationship
The Lovers, Six of Pentacles reversed, Four of Cups reversed, Page of Wands reversed, Six of Wands
open and honest communication will lead to a retraction of generosity and goodwill. and re-evaluation. look inward for inspiration and there will be victory. make a choice about how much they're putting in and getting taken advantage of and their ideas taken. but reconsideration will lead to good things.

May reading by seedsofshakti for a viewer
1. "what energy will May crack wide open?" King of Swords. coming into power mentally, intellectually. find strength in mind and intelligence, maybe scholarly pursuit? maybe confident in how term is ending.
2. "how can I practice self-mothering/self-nurturing over the next 31 days?" Ten of Pentacles reversed. fulfillment spiritually? inner fulfillment. maybe achieve something that maybe intellectually that brings great joy from within.
3. "how can I honor Beltane on May 1st?" Four of Pentacles. be careful with money and earthly possessions. don't give too much away of self and finances and material things.
4. "what should I focus on to cultivate prosperity for the Taurus New Moon?" Page of Swords reversed. use your mind to reach into yourself spiritually and analyze and come to terms with that inner fulfillment. intellectualize it, absorb it, actualize it.
5. "what truths about my relationships is the Full Moon in Sagittarius illuminating?" The Fool reversed. being stagnant with relationships. complacent with where they are. not contributing to letting them grow and change. comfort in that, but risk of stagnation. use inner fulfillment to change and use it to change your relationships.
6. "what potent transformations will the Lunar Eclipse hold space for?" Page of Pentacles reversed. unexpected expense coming? have to act fast.
7. "overall theme of the month?" Temperance reversed. little over halfway a phase in your life. some kind of imbalance between earthly and spiritual self. maybe go too hard on fulfillment and analysis. overspend on unexpected expense and forget to be careful? sun is slowly starting to set on this phase in your life. imbalance won't last forever. imbalance of neglecting money side and works against you. save money for unexpected expense.

May reading by seedsofshakti for me
1. "what energy will May crack wide open?" Queen of Swords reversed. my depression is still going to rule me and not be in control of my mentality.
2. "how can I practice self-mothering/self-nurturing over the next 31 days?" Seven of Cups reversed. focus on only a few things, not many things.
3. "how can I honor Beltane on May 1st?" Two of Cups reversed. rely on myself more and stop asking for help as much.
4. "what should I focus on to cultivate prosperity for the Taurus New Moon?" Page of Cups reversed. changing that I'm not emotionally fulfilled right now. am I happy with my relationships? focus just on elgato and huion
5. "what truths about my relationships is the Full Moon in Sagittarius illuminating?" Ten of Swords reversed. I'm betraying myself. by not being honest and not talking about the things that are bothering me. by not putting more effort into my relationships and maintaining them.
6. "what potent transformations will the Lunar Eclipse hold space for?" Queen of Cups reversed. lose control of my emotions? not be steady? not be stable? might have depression or manic episode?
7. "overall theme of the month?" The Hermit reversed. I keep withdrawing to my own detriment. rely on myself but reach out to people on social level.

May reading for me
1. "what is the theme of the month ahead for me?" Four of Swords. rest. mentally. focus on few things and not many.
2. "something I should pursue this month?" Nine of Cups reversed. lack of satisfaction with my situation and fix it.
3. "something I should let go of this month?" Judgement reversed. not close to the end of a phase. burying myself in the wrong stuff again. focusing on wrong things.
4. "message from my guides?" The Star reversed. I've been neglecting my spirituality all winter and haven't gotten back into the practice and I need to.

TRUSTING THE JOURNEY for me
1. "my energy is represented by 1:" Three of Wands reversed. not looking to the horizon, not exploring, short-sighted. I'm stuck on obstacles that are keeping me from streaming, stuck on errands that I'm not doing. dwelling too much on being still depressed.
2. "as I walk into my journey, I encounter some blockages (2):" Queen of Pentacles. Mom keeps pushing me about Malcolm??? I dunno
3. "only to realize that 3 is what will offer me strength going forward:" Queen of Cups. my emotional strength???
4. "the Universe is teaching me a valuable lesson about myself (4):" The Lovers reversed. I communicate badly?
5. "for I know 5 is what I must work on to restore balance and find fulfillment in my life at the moment:" Ten of Cups reversed. uhhhhhh?????

HERO'S JOURNEY for me
1. "Departure: what I must leave behind:" Knight of Wands? myself??? my impulsiveness?
2. "Initiation: what I can now begin:" Six of Wands reversed. celebrating myself? I can look at what's defeating me and work on fixing it?
3. "Return: what I must bring back:" The Fool. naivete but contradicts Knight of Wands?

MAY THE 4TH for me
1. "how can I embrace The Force today?" Six of Swords reversed. let go with joy instead of sorrow. but release what?
2. "what needs to be addressed on my 'dark side'?" Three of Wands reversed. being short-sighted. but how?
3. "a nugget of wisdom from Yoda?" Ten of Cups reversed. that I'm not satisfied and I should work on it?

TAURUS SEASON for me
(Empress at top and Heirophant in middle)
1. "limiting behavior or belief to release:" The Chariot. don't need to always be in a hurry.
2. "what to welcome in/strive toward:" Ace of Cups reversed. bring shadow self to the fore and do shadow work.
3. "how to stabilize and find comfort:" Five of Wands reversed. need to stop fighting with myself (for/over what?)? that I'm having high expectations of myself?

MAY THE 4TH for viewer
1. "how can I embrace The Force today?" Five of Pentacles reversed. remember what you do have, instead of what you lack. remember blessings instead of shortcomings. remember who and what you are, not what or who you are not.
2. "what needs to be addressed on my 'dark side'?" Six of Wands reversed. you don't celebrate yourself, you don't give yourself credit, you don't let yourself feel accomplished.
3. "a nugget of wisdom from Yoda?" Seven of Cups reversed. spread out over too much shit; focus on one or two things. running yourself ragged because you don't feel any satisfaction because not celebrating victory, so you keep chasing.

HERO'S JOURNEY for viewer
1. "Departure: what I must leave behind:" Four of Pentacles reversed. let go of lack mindset.
2. "Initiation: what I can now begin:" The Magician. you are already powerful and can become more powerful by letting go of the lack mindset.
3. "Return: what I must bring back:" King of Pentacles reversed. must leave comfort zone and do the work to let go of lack mindset.

DEEPING CONNECTIONG TO TAROT
1. "how can I deepen my connection with source?" Judgement reversed. ask them what I am called to do?
2. "how can I expand my understanding of that connection?" Two of Pentacles. balance life better with spirituality.
3. "what needs to be completed that is no longer in alignment with that connection?" The Empress. self-nurturing.
4. "what currently defines my relationship with tarot?" King of Swords reversed. unsure, unsteady
5. "how can I better honor that relationship?" The Star. practice spirituality again; study.
6. "how can I stay rooted in my relationship with tarot?" The World. see the big picture and do readings for others.
7. "how can I be more humble in that relationship?" The Hierophant reversed. trust tarot's values as much as my own.

STANDING IN MY POWER
1. "why I often don't stand in my power?" Four of Cups reversed. constant self-criticism.
2. "what I'm scared of about channeling my power?" Six of Pentacles. that I won't know how to keep it? that so much of my generosity and energy has been taken from me or freely given without reciprocation?
3. "a way that I can stand in for my power?" The Hermit. internal searching.
4. "what I could accomplish if I stand in my power?" The Fool reversed. I will be more knowing, more seeing.
5. "something I should be more confident in when it comes to my power?" Queen of Swords reversed. that I'm not just ruled by my head.
6. "how I can be more confident that the universe has my back?" The Sun reversed. because the divine is within me.

RECLAIMING MY PERSONAL POWER
1. "a deep source of personal power for me:" King of Pentacles. internal abundance? love and compassion?
2. "what is it inviting me to pay attention to?" Six of Pentacles reversed. that I give too much of myself away to my detriment.
3. "where do I tend to give this part of myself away?" Ten of Cups. to all that I love.
4. "how can I reclaim this point of power?" Four of Wands. remember happier times? remember what makes me happy?
5. "how am I being invited to serve from this place?" Two of Pentacles. I'm being called by the spiritual side.

HEAL
1. "where could I use the most healing right now?" lack of unconditional love from Mom.
2. "how do these wounds manifest in my daily life?" Knight of Pentacles reversed. I'm not cautious, I'm unbalanced, I'm reckless.
3. "how do these scars impact my relationships?" Four of Cups. I don't know how to accept love that's being offered.
4. "a lesson I have learned from this experience:" The World. I am complete and beautiful and whole and loved, whether my mother loves me as I am or not.
5. "how can I begin to heal this trauma?" Three of Swords. investigate it. feel it. don't run from it.

CERES AND SELF LOVE
1. "a personal narrative or belief to release?" Eight of Wands. that I always need to be in a hurry.
2. "a way I can show myself kindness?" Ten of Wands. recognize my burdens and re-evaluate.
3. "a nurturing practice to remember?" King of Cups. sit in my emotional center and find balance and focus in it.

CONNECTING WITH YOUR GUIDES
1. "what I'm not aware of:" Eight of Swords. I'm my own worst enemy and restrict myself with negative thinking.
2. "things you're here to teach me:" The Hierophant. my connection to the divine; my values in my spirituality.
3. "how I can align with my true purpose:" The Devil. shadow work.
4. "signs I should look out for to indicate their presence:" Five of Cups reversed. don't turn my back on my blessings?
5. "divine message:" Judgement. they're trying to call me to my purpose.